One Sleep Down...

Three more to go.  Yesterday was a really frustrating, depressing day.  Today was kind of just a side step. I didn't get much sleep, so I have been fighting a headache off and on all day.  I came home and did some cleaning, and now I'm feeling a little under the weather.  Maybe I'll get to bed before 1am.  If not, I definitely need to ramp up the coffee tomorrow.  On a positive note, the work computer is working.  Our computer guy came in and made it better.  Tomorrow I should be able to crank out a bunch of stuff.  Yay.

On a much fluffier note... here is a silly picture of puppy:

She's been very cute and uncharacteristically sweet.  Right now she is curled up right in the middle of David's chair snoring.  Sorry David, both your ladies snore. :(  But puppy is really really really cute when she does! 

Despite being a little depressed, and feeling a little run down (and really really missing my husband) I think this is going to be a good year.  I can't wait to see what is going to happen.  And best of all I get to to it all with my best friend.  Three more sleeps sweetie, two by the time your read this!

The Monday that Sucked

Any day my David gets on a plane and flies away from me pretty much sucks.  Today was just a big ol ball of suck.  David had to fly away for four sleeps.  The cat and I spent part of the morning meowing at the door and wandering around as if looking for something.  Then at work today, my work computer decided it did not want to play nice.  All but one of the programs I need to use at work decided it wasn't going to work anymore.  My web browser wouldn't open, Word wouldn't load, and Adobe wasn't playing with anyone.  So I felt like a waste of depressed space today.  One can only hope tomorrow I will get some help from our computer guy.  I know tomorrow means only three sleeps until I get to hug my sweetie again.  For now, it's just me and the cat.  She's currently sitting in David's chair taking a bath.  I think I'm going to go curl up in bed and watch an episode (or three) of True Blood.

Let Down

I am usually the last person who wants it to snow and be cold and icy, but this week I have never wanted it more.  The weather teased me, said maybe, and then didn't put out.  I have bad knees and have discovered parts that ache when it's too cold that didn't ache before.  Cold weather is not my friend.  What is my friend, and why I wanted it so badly, is my warm bed.

I'm sitting in my office getting ready to start my work day and I'm still pouting a little.  Last night was supposed to be the last (and best) chance this week at my snow day.  There is no snow.  There is rain.  Lots of rain.  And wind.  The weather got one last jab at me on my way in to the office this morning.  I climb out of the (sexy) car rain jacket and hood on.  My hands are full of purse, keys and work bag.  As I'm walking from the (sexy) car to the door the wind decides to blow my hood off and the now pouring down rain right at me.

It's lucky for everyone that there is hot coffee and hot soup in my bag (that did not spill-surprisingly). 

Last Sleep!!

Puppy and I are excited.  David comes home tomorrow!  We thought we would celebrate the good news with some cute pictures.  Enjoy!

I think maybe she thought she was hiding.

I love her nose!

Awwww!

Stretching

Watching my foot.

Lil pink tongue!

She's still hanging out in the same room as me and hasn't tried to bite, punch or hiss at me so I'm assuming she was down with the photo shoot.  I think we are both ready for David to be home :)

Sleepy Post

So I don't have any pictures or neat things to post.  We did go have a lovely time at the coast last weekend. It was lovely-cool and clear and the ocean air was perfect.  We got home and let puppy know we still love her.  Then this morning David had to hop on a plane and head to CA for two sleeps.  Puppy has been adorable, and I think she misses David maybe as much as I do!  She's been curled up in his favorite places and when he called she was all cute and twirly in my lap making cute little meows and purtles (cute little purr chirp things).  I think we both feel a little gimpy when the man of the house is away.  He is our rock, our security (and he is the one who remembers to feed puppy when I'm not awake enough to do much more than make coffee).  Two sleeps, and all will be restored. :)

Lack of Sleep+Bad Dreams=Emo Post

Last night I had an awful dream.  In my dream something had happened to David, and I was suddenly forced to go on without him.  You know the type of dream, and how icky it feels and how sometimes you just can’t wake up and stop it.  It made me think about some things.

I can remember growing up and having those dreams except instead of losing David (as we did not know of each others awesomeness yet) it would be losing a parent(s) or sibling(s) or the family pet(s).  Occasionally I still dream I lose a family member, and they are no less devastating.  I’m older now, and I have a support system all my own now.  Things are so different when you are a child and still dependent on your parents for everything.  

It makes me realize how completely intertwined my life is with his.  How just about everything I do every day he is a part of.  He is my coffee slurping partner every morning.  He is the moisturizer of my tattoo.  He is the person I have to email the really silly crap that happens that I know only he will find silly, and I email him almost daily.  We talk every day at lunch, even if briefly and no matter what mood we are in.  He is the one I text every day just before I leave to let him know I’m on my way and to see if there is anything I need to get for our evening.  He is my zombie apocalypse partner.  He is my opener of wine.  He is the person I seek comfort from after a really bad day, his hugs can cure just about anything.  Can I live without him?  Sure.  But life is so much better with him.  

Loss is the risk part of letting other people into your life, I understand that.  It’s the trade off for getting to share even the smallest amount of time with someone amazing.  My. Heart. Hurts. at the thought of not hearing my husband call me “lady.”  The life we share now is so worth the broken heart.  My life has been so much more full, and wonderful with him in it.  He has helped me become a stronger person and I know that I will be okay no matter what happens.  That is one of his ongoing gifts to me.  I can only hope I have done something similar for him.

Losing people you love just flat out sucks.  No doubt about it.  No way to change it.  Not a day goes by that I don’t think about family no longer with us and feel sad.  Some days I can talk about it or share a memory with out crying, some days I have to bawl my eyes out.  But at the end of the day, and the thing I guess I’m trying to say with this post (other than I love my husband) is that the good memories and the good things you experience from loving those people and letting them be a part of your life is worth the heartache of eventually having to say goodbye.  If your lucky, someone feels the same way about you.  Cherish those people who make you feel as loved as you do them.  We’ll all pull through okay.

Squirrels vs. Crows

As I am sitting at my desk watching the clock slowly wind its way to 4:30-I mean working really hard I will glance out the window and catch the battle of the ages taking place.  Yes.  Squirrels vs. Crows.  

Across the street from the office I work in is a grassy plot of land with room to roam and a few trees to lurk in.  It’s like a mini-park.  Really, it’s just a piece of land that has not been built on yet.  I’m sure it’s just a matter of time.  But for now, it’s ground zero.

On a cool clear day like today the squirrels are out in full force.  I honestly don’t know how many of them dwell in the land across the street.  I have seen at least 8 at a time running around twirling their tails and doing squirrel things.  Today there are three, one watching and two covering the land.  And when I say covering the land I mean hopping about through leaves (I bet they going “boing boing boing” in their heads as they hop about) and chasing each other up and down trees to hop through more leaves.  All in all, very cute.

Then the crows descend.

That’s when the squirrels turn from chasing one another to full on assault on the crows.  Any spot the crows land, the squirrels charge at.  I have never seen a squirrel move so fast, and I have never seen a crow get chased of by something so small!  After about 3 minutes the crows give up and head for the skies again and the squirrels resume chasing one another.

I love mother nature’s drama!